Why Did I Write Mindfulness Brings Clarity?

I feel like it is part of my destiny to share my grandmothers story, and my story, in order to encourage others to seek help, that it’s not a weakness. Mental health is just as important as physical health, they actually completely intertwine.

One of my long time clients told me a quote they heard once and it’s stayed with me. “Religion is for people who believe in Hell. Spirituality is for people who have already been there.” I feel like I’ve been to hell and back and can live to speak about it.

I don’t know if there is a worse feeling on this earth than wanting to end your own life. It’s about as bad as your mental health can get, without actually acting on it. Unfortunately, suicide runs in my family so it’s something that I have to be extra mindful of, because if I hadn’t decided to get myself into therapy, on proper medication, and cut some ties with some toxic family members, that generational curse might have continued.

I’m grateful to my higher power every day that I’m still here to see my daughter grow into the amazing human being she is. I cannot imagine abandoning her or my husband. But it’s not something that would be intentional. I know my grandmother did not intend to abandon my dad and my aunt, she was extremely sick and was not given the proper care she needed.

Again, I’m beyond thankful that I live in a time where the resources are much easier to access than back in 1968. But I’m confident she is looking down and is so proud of my sister and I for all of the healing we have done. And if we can do it, trust and believe that you can to. Your future self is worth it, and your present is worth experiencing now.